Life Remodeling

Life in the big metropolis is taxing!
The smog and pollution are assaulting my immune system every moment.
The noise, smells and lights of the city overwhelm my senses.
My psyche is corroded by the rat race and doggy dog mentality of Hollywood.
I need to get out of town.
I need to recharge my batteries and cleanse my mind and my soul.

Nature for me is the temple of the living God and there is no other place I feel his/her presence more vividly than in the middle of nature.

It was some time last fall when I ran out of the city in one of my weekend escapes in search of a breath of fresh air and some sanity.
And I found my self driving by this patch of forest.
The colors of the autumn had painted the trees in fantastic hues of yellow, orange, red and browns. It was so inviting I had to stop for a quick meditation.

I picked out a spot under a majestic tree and lay down on the thick cover of fallen leaves but I couldn’t close my eyes.
The canopy above me was breath taking.
The branches of the trees had lost their summer fullness and revealed patches of emerald blue sky.
The sunlight was flowing among the branches like golden honey and falling leaves were dancing a fantastic aerial ballet in the autumn breeze.
It was more beautiful than words can describe and I tried for a moment to capture, to absorb, to become one with this amazing transformation occurring in front of my eyes.

And then it hit me like a ton of bricks. A horrible thought:
God is a demolition man!
God is destroying all the summer’s beauty. He’s taking down his own creation.
But how can destruction be so beautiful, so peaceful, so natural?
Why is my soul full of love and joy and peace when everything is deconstructed and taken apart?

And then it hit me again.
God is not destroying his creation.
God is remodeling!

Autumn is just the preparation step for winter and winter is nothing but Gods clean, white canvas on which he will paint the explosion of green and color of the spring!
My soul was overwhelmed with wow and wonder.
I close my eyes and slipped into my meditation.

I have read many books on human behavior: Some of them serious stuff – required readings for my therapist license – some of them self help, pop culture fluff – but a lot more fun to read.
Pretty much all psychology and spirituality revolves around the concept of fixing you up, making you feel better.
One is doing it by getting you in touch with your true self and the other by putting you in touch with your true nature.
But your true self and your true nature is God and God is change, renewal and evolution.
God is the dance of Shiva an Kali, not one nor the other.

We spend our life patching up, painting another coat of appearance on hour existence, fooling ourselves that we have attained enlightenment and happiness - like enlightenment and happiness are some sort of trophy one puts on the fire place mantle.

I have never heard anyone saying:
Life is an ongoing project and if you don’t like it take a big hammer and tear it down.
Get a fresh start. Get a new life!
Do some life remodeling!